lately I have been doing a lot of thinking. The Custody battle was dragged out again. This time till January. Doubt I'll get to see my babies on Christmas or Yule.

My lawyer says I may have a chance to get them back IF i can get a job. So far nothing. I put in 2 applications a week, minimum. Nothing yet.

I've been depressed a lot recently too. lost interest in some of my fav thing (like SWG). I still game, the role playing helps. It gets me out of reality for a short time.

but I still wonder

what if I don't get my kids back? The in-laws have filed for custody in case I don't win. But I'm not sure if I am ready to live in MN again. I don't really know anyone. I won't have my family right down the road. I won't have my freinds down the hall. Having everyone here helps.

But even with everyone here I still get really depressed at times. I keep thinking what did I do wrong? Why am I being denied my kids? What if I don't get them back?

sorry, but given what I am going through I have had to take a lot of my Deviations down. Anything in which I am topless or nude has to be taken down.

It may be art to many of us, however the Judge for my custody battle is an old, white, conservative man who probly won't she my work as art. The Guardian Adlium has already stated that SHE doesn't concider nudity art, and she is the balance point as to wether or not i get my kids.

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well I think my mom just screwed herself in the custody case.

I go visit the kids tomorrow, and I get to confront her on her latest traffic offense. She is a habitual offender of driving on a suspended/revoked license. She was given fines, 90 days DL suspension, and 90 days jail time. The jail time was knocked down to 10 days though. She has lied to the family saying that she was offered a job out of town on the weekends and that her van broke down again. I get to try to get the truth out of her tomorow. If she denies the time or gets confrentational with me then I can get an emergency hearing.


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well the court hearing didn't go too well. I lost quite a bit. Due to some bs my mom told the Guardian Adlightum (GA) I only get supervised visits, and there is no set schedule. GA wanted Granny to supervise, but my mom said that Granny is too old (Granny got pissed at that) so she keeps trying to find ways supervise herself. Plain and simple she don't get along with Donna (my aunt, her sister) and she don't want the kids near her.

Long story short on that, I drive 1-2 hours and pay $5 every Friday so that I can play with the kids at Goochland YMCA. It takes 1/4 tank of gas and because i am not a member I pay $5 to get in.


I have went back to my OnLine college classes. Math sux.

I still babysit during the day. So far the house is just about ready 4 the kids. I don't go back to court again till Sept. I still cry at night, most nights. Money is getting a little tighter. And I don't really have an RP group anymore. I miss RPing. It really helped. I would try more SWG, but it's only so fun if you play alone.

Found this and wanted to know more about my fellow watchers and what they think of me... I TAG ALL OF THEE!!!

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

I have decided to try this as a part of Art Therapy.

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist. After 100 pics who wouldn't be better?

The rules:

1.) Create 100 pictures with each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be digital or traditional art. For all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.
- Pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the DA etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that:
- You are in the challenge
- What you have completed

5.) Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work, note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

7.) Now the good part. CHALLENGE YOUR FRIENDS!


THE LIST
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(started March 2008)
1. Introduction ( [link] )
2. Love ( [link] )
3. Light ( [link] )
4. Dark ( [link] )
5. Seeking Solace ([link] )
6. Break Away ( [link] )
7. Heaven ( [link] )
8. Innocence ( [link] )
9. Drive ([link] )
10. Breathe Again ( [link] )
11. Memory ( [link] )
12. Insanity ( [link] )
13. Misfortune ( [link] )
14. Smile ( [link] )
15. Silence ( [link] )
16. Questioning ( [link] )
17. Blood ( [link] )
18. Rainbow ( [link] )
19. Gray ( [link] )
20. Fortitude ( [link] )
21. Vacation ( [link] )
22. Mother Nature ( [link] )
23. Cat ( [link] )
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation
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